Love at last sight. . .

“Grass is always green on the other side is a very common saying. But, is it? What I have learnt is that maybe your garden is just suitable for a different type of grass. All you have to do to make your side greener and highly flourishing is that take care of it, nurture it the right way “in the right season”!!  Now you totally can’t expect apples to start flowering in summer. So basically grab the right opportunity once you know your capabilities.

 

Opportunities are what we do not grab that is where we lack cause if that is what we did correctly we would all feature in the times countdown of most successful, powerful or desirable people!! We do regret it, we curse ourselves, we fuss a lot about it, crib about it and what not but all this, only when its too late…when it’s gone we realize that that is what we love, that is what we want more than anything in the life.. You see something, but you don’t really see it, it’s like in the wings. Or you notice it but nothing clicks, nothing strikes or catches!!! And before you even aware of a presence, or of something troubling you, the time that was offered to you with it has already passed and it’s either already gone or is about to leave. And you scramble to get yourself in terms with something that was brewing your mind for a long time right under your nose and bears all the symptoms of what you call “I WANT”! How could I not know?!?! You ask yourself a zillion times, I know desire when I see it right away but yet this time it slipped, out of all times only this time…

 

This is what I call “LOVE AT LAST SIGHT”! Life is kind of short and trust me it just NOT like it’s never too late. We fight, cheat, ignore each other and sour the relationship so much that we aren’t really left with a choice but to end it, but if its someone you love, you regret it too later and miss the times with him later. The absence of that thing or the person you love creates a whole space, an empty void in your life that can only be filled in by the fond memories, and as you remember it over a cup of coffee you say to yourself “ I wish I knew it, I wish it was love at first sight and not love at last sight”!!

 

 

P.S. there are many things I regret, many fights I wish I dint get into, many relationships I wish I dint sour, many thing I wish I could get back to normal and most importantly I wish I knew I wanted it all earlier!

Spells of a GALZ life!

The following few posts are dedicated to all the gals. These posts are about the various phases of a girl’s life, starting right from the embryo level to the pregnancy stage. Read it enjoy it…

SPELL-I

I’m cuddled up in your womb
It’s cozy here but a little cramped
When you wear clothes I feel the warmth
So close is our bond

I nourish myself with what you eat
I’m sorry for the times I hit you by my feet!
I know you can read my head
From you I cannot masquerade!!

Though I wonder if our relation
Would be same after my parturition??

Will you be a friend, and let me follow the trends?
Or will you be strict and to rules ask me to stick??
Will you force me to sit and study?
Or let me hang out with my buddy?
Will you let me have tons of chocolates??
Will you let me stay wake too late??
Or will you ask me to have diner and sleep sharp at eight??

I wonder what will be our relation
After my parturition?

Am anxious to be out there but a little scared
I know not what people out there are like
Are they scary? Are they sweet??
I know not what they are like!
Do hold my hand and guide me around
Show me the world and tell me what’s wrong, what’s right
Hope you hold my hand tight
I can feel your anxiety and your fright
Hope you won’t leave my hand when you realize
That I am a “GIRL CHILD”

Shit I’m scared and I wonder what will be our relation.
Will it be same post parturition?

SPELL -II

I live in my world of fantasies
I like to play with my Barbies.
Mr. Pooh, as I don’t call him for my tea parties
At times gets a little angry
And in that Donald and Mickey are always hungry!
But in the end every one is happy after the supper
Cause we talk it out and resolve our matters

But I know not what’s with these adults??
They kill, they yell, they fight, they insult!!
Though I don’t understand the big words like
Terrorism, hypocrisy, global warming
But mom tells me it’s all a little hyped!
I still believe it can be solved by talking!
Why do they take so much tension?
I wish the fairies could be nice to them too
And take away their problems too!

This time to the tooth fairy I’ll pray
Their problems if she could take away
Maybe they aren’t good girl like me
Maybe mom’s right
Having too much chocolates watching too much TV
Isn’t how good people are suppose to be
And maybe they do this
And hence god’s punishing them!
So I better be nice
And since the clock reads nine
I bid the world good night!

SPELL-III

Ufff!! 16 is a tough age!!
3 years of being a teen and 3 more to go
Good they will be I hope!

I’m a little stubborn at this age,
If it’s not my way I get rage.
I want it my way if not then am not in it.
Am a girl in my teens
Temperamental like any other you have seen!

This though stuck me on Christmas
When my parents told me I was too old for a X-Mas present
Being a big girl that I was I made no fuss
And even in the Christmas party decided to be absent!
To my surprise from my parents I got a royal thrashing
For being absent for a party I got an invitation
I too lost my patience and started yelling
And told them “I thought you said I was too old for X-Mas celebration!!”
So am I old or am I young?
As I am a girl in my teens
Confused, like any other you have seen!

Am innocent, am young,
But smart enough to plan, in school a mass bunk
Am naïve, am nice
Don’t try fooling me though, I’ll catch you otherwise
Am a girl in my teens
Inexperienced but wise, just like any other you have seen

I wanna be different, I wanna be nice
I wanna be sweet, I wanna be kind,
I wanna be pretty, I wanna be liked
Without being a wanna-bee I wanna be the best
After all
Am a girl in my teens
Aspiring to be just perfect, just like any other you’ve seen!

SPELL - IV

Am a girl just out of my teens,
Hoping twenties will be better than what teenage has been
Am more of a lady and less of a gal now.
Though my hair are at times messy
But am definitely less clumsy

Phantom, Superman, Batman are part of fiction books I know
No more does Barbie and her guy called Ken interest me
Nor do tiaras and magical wands fascinate me!
I do believe in god but not anymore in granny’s moral stories!
But I do believe in prince charming,
He will come for me I hope,
Not on a white horse though,
Maybe casually riding a bike, you never know!
My mind he’ll sway,
Lost in his world he’ll take me away!

With time my grey cells count has increased
I am little more focused,
I know what I want in life
I enjoy my life; live it up to the fullest.
I’ll give you the looks
And in a minute you’ll be hooked
Am witty, am poised
I can be bitchy if you aren’t nice!!
I am a little more worldly-wise

Am a girl just out of my teens
Trying to be more resolved than what I have been!

SPELL- V

I am the woman of today
Walking shoulder to shoulder with man
Am witty, am powerful
Am sensible and graceful
Proud to be what I am
Gone are the days when women were considered
The weaker section of the society
I strongly believe
The power of women is much superior to men
The things that men do
Can be done by women too
But everything that I do
Can’t be done by you men too

Am a homemaker
I nourish, I care
I flourish, I bare it all
I make my home a happy place
I make my office a successful place
I beat the stress
I work hours and hours at a stretch
Am smart, am independent
Not someone you can fool
I’ve seen the world and I know its rules!

I am working woman
Living life
Balancing time
Making my home sweet home
And hitting it right in office too

SPELL-VI

That night was flawless
I was with the guy I loved the most!
Wrapped in the arms of some one I loved to the core
I couldn’t have asked for anything more
There was love, passion and happiness all around me.
I felt content
My heart was brimming with love
I thought it had no space any more!
Until the next morning I realized
You came into existence
Something was growing inside of me...
Something was growing in me...
Something is growing from me
It’s a part of me.
The feeling is inexpressible
But my happiness is tangible
I feel each move you make
My love grows for you every moment am awake!!
My heart seemed to have doubled since
There’s a twinkle in my eye
At times there are tears of happiness
The joy I feel, only by thinking about you
A whole new life now within me
In a short while will be around me
I’ll love you and to the utmost for you show care
For you anything I’ll bear
I know your needs in and out
I hope it’ll be the same once you are out
Ill be there for always
Holding your hand, guiding you right
I wish I could cuddle you in my arms now
Look at you smile, look at you jump with joy
Play with your friend around.
When I come home after long working hours
You’ll greet me with your zillion dollar smile
And my problems will vanish miles and miles
Come to earth soon!
Am desperately waiting for you!!
Waiting to see if our relation
Would be same post-parturition!

365*18 sleepless nights..and the count is on...

Every time you think you have successfully leapt all hurdles, sidestepped every trap, negotiated every maze, haven’t left any stone unturned, life introduces you to a new set of challenges. People call it life but when you sit down to thinking about the whole journey, it is no less than a roller-coaster ride. Right from the day one when a child is born he has to be made fit for his continuance. The struggle for survival starts right then, after all survival of the fittest is the basis of life.

It majorly begins (the count of sleepless nights) with the board classes (thanks to Kapil Sibal for small mercy of “abolishing” board exams for 10th atleast from now on… I mean at the age of just 15 16 handling so much pressure was very inhuman!!!) During this epoch parents and teachers constantly insist and try to absolutely convince you that these three years starting from 10th to 12th were the “only 3 years” I repeat “only 3 years” wherein you had to study your eyes out. But trust me it only gets worse from there, till then you just studied your eyes out after that you have to study you @$$e$ off!!! After 12th more than half the population of this densely populated country sits either for B.Tech or MBBS competitive exams. In which out of a whooping 70 lakhs students only 70 thousand manage to secure a place in a college. Then the parents set down to assuring their lad that if he studies now and gets into some good college his life’s made, as if the college authorities or professors posses some magical powers and when you go to them, whroom they swivel and spin their wand, abracadabra and your life’s made…. And now when I happen to have secured a seat in this pretty respectable college (supposedly India’s number one private university!!), I’ve realized that these professors are the ones who make things tougher for us. Right from the attendance, tests, vivas, assignments, etc etc… are all deeply intramural!!

Over the time I have partially inured to all this. Insomnia has been dug into my genome, and hence the sleeping hormone recedes during alarming times. One thing that am sure of by now is that one has to give up on sleep, a lot of sleep to keep up with everything (even if your bed is hell possessive about you, and even you love the feel of the cozy pillow and the soft and spongy bed with the warm quilt over you….wow!!! Sorry Sorry just got carried away since I have been having a few sleepless nights…. Guess my next post should be on sleeponomics!!!) Anyways getting back to where I was, now that I am in an engineering college I know that from here starts the rat race for jobs….

So when will this end??? Or will this even ever end??? With the population exploding tremendously, I doubt it is ever going to stop. Competition is only on its way to amplification by many folds. There is no need for me to remind anyone that India looses more than a hundred students each day, reason suicide!!! Many students can’t bear the pressure and end up quitting, nervous breakdowns, and lifestyle diseases like hypertension, diabetes are also very common these days. Google actually gives a whooping twenty thousand results in just 0.25 seconds when asked for “suicide attempts by Indian students”!!! If you go further deep into the statistics you realize how shocking the results are. Needless to say that there are some flaws in our education system and it definitely needs amendments. High time the authorities wake up!!! Some solid steps have to be taken, something more than what is being done. Plans have to be executed and not be laid latent on papers. I am yet to discover my future, yet to face many more intricacies in life. Though I am anxious about my destiny but at the same time a lil’ scared as I don’t want to be the ones to say “I quit, let me sleep peacefully”!!!




PS. This post is dedicated to all those who have sleepless night due to studies!!!

"All izz well!!!" Am I pacified???

“Wear black to protest whatever happened,
Wear white for peace”

Messages like these absolutely choked the network on the Saturday night the 13th of February following the blast that happened in Pune!!!
But was this the first time that this message had buzzed your cell?? Uhhh… I guess the answer would be a no. Take that cell out and check out a few messages that you received on 26/11. See, aren’t they the same? Well hats off to those who come up with such peaceful ways of opposing or protesting something. Even that “all izz well” too works to quite an extent. That is one great way to pacify oneself. Amir Khan’s funda of pacifying oneself maybe great…. But in extreme moments it is not really easy to say “all izz well” or just be back to normal with a “jadu ki jhappi”. Then you have to do something about it. Like I, ended up blogging about it or like the Pune folks, who are carrying out candle march and conducting blood donation camps.

Well Pune used to be this near perfect “holiday package place” for the people hailing in Mumbai, Nagpur, with loveliest weather ample number of trees, with a simple yet very elite and a sophisticated crowd until the capital “Cs” of commercialization, concrete and capitalization ate into the idyllic place and spoiled the climate too.

It’s said that now “Poona” has become “Pune” and might even graduate to “Pooh-nay”!! Its folks preferences have changed from sipping a cup of coffee in a haven of tranquility and peace with books in CCDs to boozing in hip and happening hard rock café, from sitting in “1000 Oaks” with an amigo in an absolutely serene and an enchanting ambience, to ‘Bashos’ with hookahs. Maybe for good though, after all globalization is the in-thing and when it comes to being “in” Pune just cant be left far behind. It has recently discovered newer ways of being a part of that global map…just like Mumbai did, Delhi, Bangalore or any other bloodshed city did. As the saying goes “ kuch pane ke liye kuch khona bhi padta hai” so did Pune had to pay the price for its name fame. To own a place on the map even Pune could not elude from the terrorists’ hit list!!!

German Bakery too has received a lot of fame but not for its buttery, scrumptious and absolutely mouth watering Shrews Berry biscuits but for the “boom” that happened there. It used to be the stamping ground for the young and the old, not only for its biscuits but also for its refreshing ice tea and its other fermented beverages. The near by Osho ashram was a must visit for any tourist. German bakery has now grown as legendary as the Kayani bakery. In fact I wouldn’t be mistaken to say that it has rather overpowered Kayani when it comes to fame. There’s a saying
“Like Tarun Tahilani’s annual sale,
So goes with Kayani’s daily sales”
I thought I should provide German Bakery too with something like that as there is now a daily column in every newspaper about it which manifests that it is a more “popular” place than any other place in Pune for now. So…
“German bakery’s “BOOM” has lead to its hyper fame’
Poor Shrews Berry biscuits yearn for the fame claim!!!” :(

Needless to say both the “boom” and the “fame” were unwanted. The blasts were for the obvious reasons, to hamper the peace of this quiet yet happening city. Since the blast was carried out in one of the most posh and a majorly foreigners inhabited area it could also be with a motive to hinder the economic growth of India and certainly to terrorize its citizens.

Whatever happened was in short sad. It has ramshackled the state of mind of the residents of Pune, it has not only made a despicable impact but has also left the country in complete despair and desolation. This was a very way ward chapter in Pune’s history and everyone will forever rancour it.

Though I always had it in the back of my mind to start a blog with something related to Pune only but had never imagined that it would be on such a tragic issue. Its just a quirk of fate that whatever happened in Pune triggered off an outburst of emotions in me and I realized that penning down my feelings about it would be the best way to pacify myself.



P.S. Remember the Lenten month is on so forgive me for any blunt statement, bear with me after all “I am only trying to pacify myself…. All izz well…. All izz well!!”